I'm STRESSED!

Wow, what a week this has been! I feel like we just can't get out of this rut...there has been mountains upon mountains.

I have spent the week contacting and interviewing agency after agency, trying to find one that would work with our homestudy. Well, it can't happen. We have decided to use Holt International and they have cooperating agencies that complete their homestudies. We have found an agency (Adoption Network Domestic and International [ANDI]). I just LOVE Frances Anastasio, the executive director. Her personality is awesome and her request for me is to "relax". I needed to hear that:) She expressed that she "really wanted to help us" and explained how she can do that, relatively easily. She was really concerned about the money we had invested already with our homestudy (that wasn't going to work out). When I explained to her that we had only paid the application fee so far she was thrilled. She asked me to contact my current case worker, AJ, and ask her for copies of all that she has done and received from us so far. She will work with that information. She e-mailed me the information that she requires for her homestudies and we have almost (if not all) of the stuff done already. Thank God for this!!

I submitted our online application to Holt International tonight and should hear back from somebody next week.

This week has been one step forward, two steps back....

I know one day we will look back at this and realize that it was ALL worth it. People do not lie when they call this stage our "paper pregnancy".

Oh we can't wait to get our hands on our little one!!!

Boy or girl...what do you think?

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. (Psalm 27: 1, 3)